I have just put my first book on pre-order at Amazon. This is why I had to write it (from the book):
I have heard that one should write the book she needs to read. I have needed to read this book for a long time – when I was 13 and took comfort and solace in food; when I was 18, on the brink of starting college, and unsure of what I wanted in my life; when I was in graduate school and followed the path of least resistance. I needed this book when I was carrying my candy bar around to lose weight (Yes, totally illogical. Stay tuned to learn more), working on changing my thoughts, beliefs, actions, habits, life. I needed this book as a young mother and as a not-so-young mother. I need this book now.
So I am writing this book. For me. And I invite you to come along with me. I hope you find it meaningful. But this book is for me. This book is for my inner bitch. She needs to be heard. She knew what she wanted all along – at all those times I mentioned above. She was there, telling me. But I couldn’t hear her for all the noise in my head. The noise from my noisy roommate. The noise from the media. The noise from years and years of expectations. The noise from internalized stories I held inside for too long.
Inner bitches and noisy roommates? All of us have both – each more or less developed. And we have to decide which to listen to.
What do I want from this book? I have listed a few things below – the first line is how I initially wrote it. Then I realized I wanted to personalize it, own it. I want you to own it as well.
I want women to realize they can express themselves without fear holding them back.
I want to realize I can express myself without fear holding me back.
I want women to live a fully authentic life.
I want to live a fully authentic life.
I want women to stop hiding who they really are, including from themselves.
I want to stop hiding who I really am, including from myself.
I want women to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks. Most of the time they aren’t even thinking about you.
I want to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks. Most of the time they are not even thinking about me.
I want women to love their bodies and themselves for who they are.
I want to love my body and myself for who I am.
I want to empower younger women to assert themselves now.
I want to be empowered to assert myself now.
I want women to be empowered to speak up and to sit at the table.
I want to be empowered to speak up and to sit at the table.
I want to begin a revolution of women who know who they are and what they want and are skilled at asking for it.
I want to begin a revolution of women like me who know who we are and what we want and are skilled at asking for it.
I want to unleash the power of the hidden inner bitches inside so many amazing women. Women who have great ideas but who have buried those ideas under a lack of confidence or uncertainty.
I want to unleash the power of the hidden inner bitch inside my amazing self. I have great ideas but I have buried those ideas under a lack of confidence or uncertainty.
I want to counteract our societal messages about what it means to be a lady – I want to encourage women to be women.
I want to counteract our societal messages about what it means to be a lady – I want to encourage myself to be me.
I want to share my story of hiding my inner bitch which led to a myriad of issues, such as self-doubt, low self-esteem, anxiety, and eating disorders. And, most importantly, I want to share my story of finding and releasing her so she, and I, could thrive.
My inner bitch wants to write it. And I have learned it is best to listen to her.